It’s been a challenging week. I’ve been struggling to go at a pace that my body doesn’t like.
Meanwhile, life around me is slowing down. The leaves are starting to fall, the garden is winding down, and even the weeds seem to have stopped growing. The days are getting shorter, animals are preparing for winter, and there is less energy all around. Mother Nature is getting ready for the long winter’s rest ahead. So why shouldn’t I?
Autumn is perhaps the most poignant season, in my opinion. These crisp, sweet days remind us of less complicated times, as we try to savor the fleeting burst of color across the landscape. Things around us are going dormant or dying, leaving behind a quiet and familiar melancholy.
It’s hard to accept things dying, even when it’s part of nature’s flow. It’s even harder to accept when it seems that there is no reason for it.
This past week, a deer was brought to the wildlife rehabilitation facility I volunteer at. It had been hit by a car; its back was broken and one of its legs was broken and bent in an unnatural direction. It had only been there a short while before I arrived, but already an animal control officer was arriving to take it away and alleviate it’s suffering.
The deer cried piteously as it was carried away in a blanket. It was loaded into the back of a truck, and there it lay – helpless as it suffered through its last moments of life on earth.
Why should any creature suffer so needlessly? That is, without a doubt, one of the great mysteries of life.
After the injured deer was carried away, I went to feed the two remaining fawns. I was so struck by their beauty and fragility as they sucked at the bottles of milk with the golden autumn sunlight flashing in their eyes, on their long, lovely lashes, and on their coarse, tawny hair.
Coming face to face with suffering is very difficult, but it makes the Sacredness of Life all the more evident. It gives me the urge to care for my earth-home and cherish my fellow living beings. The grass, the ferns, the squirrels, the oaks, the rivers, the turkeys, the beetles, the moths, the coyotes, the rabbits, the pines, the soil, the blue jays, the bumblebees, and everything else that is a part of this living, breathing world – I offer my tender gratitude to you.